Here without you

Strangest feeling ever saying goodbyes at the airport. I mean, I have done it before but never to a boyfriend. Family and friends, meh. I've been to boarding school, I'm used to not seeing people for over three months and considering I went to boarding school before the advent of facebook and free calls from telecom networks that meant three months of zero communication. Fast forward to 2010, my boyfriend and I had never spent longer than a week apart in our two months of dating and even then, it was texting all round the clock and 50 phone calls a day (okay, I exaggerate a bit - more like five 30minute phone calls but you get the picture) so when time came for him to get back to LA I didn't really know how hard it would hit me. I was all about living in the moment and crossing that bridge when I got to it. Well, that bridge is here and let me tell you, I have never had a harder time crossing - been bawling my eyes out and living on a strict diet of poetry and love songs. (Hence the title of the post. Three Doors Down, anyone?) Going to start a journal on how I get through each day. Hey, you never know I could sell it one day for millions - silver linings people, silver linings :)

O Blush Not So!

O BLUSH not so! O blush not so!
Or I shall think you knowing;
And if you smile the blushing while,
Then maidenheads are going.

There's a blush for want, and a blush for shan't,
And a blush for having done it;
There's a blush for thought, and a blush for nought,
And a blush for just begun it.

O sigh not so! O sigh not so!
For it sounds of Eve's sweet pippin;
By these loosen'd lips you have tasted the pips
And fought in an amorous nipping.

Will you play once more at nice-cut-core,
For it only will last our youth out,
And we have the prime of the kissing time,
We have not one sweet tooth out.

There's a sigh for aye, and a sigh for nay,
And a sigh for "I can't bear it!"
O what can be done, shall we stay or run?
O cut the sweet apple and share it!

John Keats


I'm so loving this poem. Reminds me of my flirtatious best :)

Self Induced Literary Paralysis

You guys, I always mean to write. I compose entire posts in my head but then life happens and when I get back to blog everything just doesn't seem that good anymore. I need one of those phones where you can instantly post to your blog before I have time to change my mind . See, the thing is some stuff I just won't write cause I am afraid of it not meeting my expectations of what I know it could be. I don't write for an audience, I write for myself. I want to write what I would want to read so when I think it could be so much better its paralyzing and in the end I write nothing at all. And yes, I know its my loss.

Anyway let me just end this post with an example of how I want to write. (I lifted this straight from a friends blog but don't judge)

INCOGNITO
Meet me in Cognito, baby.
In Cognito we’ll have nothing to hide.
Let’s go incognito, honey,
And let the world believe that we’ve died.

Meet me in Cognito, baby,
Of course we’ll have to color our hair.
The best thing about life in Cognito
Is that everybody’s nobody there.

Meet me in Cognito, darling,
Sure, some may think that it’s rash,
But you’ll look chic incognito
With your fake nose and Groucho mustache.

Meet me in Cognito, baby,
We’ll soon leave our pasts behind us.
The present is always a mystery,
As the future never fails to remind us.

Once we’re alone in Cognito,
We’ll remove all of our clothes very fast,
But though we be naked as jaybirds,
At no time will we take off our masks.

Cinderella went incognito,
And it’s said that she had a ball.
It’s always midnight in Cognito
By the black clock at the end of the hall.

We’re destined to be clandestine,
Incognito is our very last hope.
I’ll meet you where the sun don’t shine,
With a fake I.D. and some dope.

So do join me in Cognito,
You know that I’ll never tell.
We’ll sneak in the back door of Heaven
And stroll unnoticed through Hell.

Incognito
Incognito
There, every day’s a surprise.
Incognito
Incognito
Where truth tells all the best lies.

(Those who travel in Cognito-
Their very lives can depend on a hunch.
They eat intuition for breakfast
And sip cold paranoia at lunch.)

If you won’t meet me in Cognito, Baby,
I’m apt to go out of my head.
But if you really can’t handle incognito
Meet me in Absentia, instead.

The One Who Is Missing is missing,
He can’t run but He certainly can hide.
His ghost car is parked in Cognito,
Do you think He might give us a ride?

You play the game incognito,
You risk paying a very stiff price.
You’ll bet the ranch on Number 13,
Though that number is not on the dice.

No news is good news in Cognito,
Addresses are damn hard to find.
The queen of spades runs the mailroom
And all the postmen are legally blind.

Just because you’re naked
Doesn’t mean you’re sexy,
Just because you’re cynical
Doesn’t mean you’re cool.
You may tell the greatest lies
And wear a brilliant disguise
But you can’t escape the eyes
Of the one who sees right through you.

In the end what will prevail
Is your passion not your tale,
For love is the Holy Grail,
Even in Cognito.

So better listen to me, sister,
And pay close attention, mister:
It’s very good to play the game,
Amuse the gods, avoid the pain,
But don’t trust fortune, don’t trust fame,
Your real self doesn’t know your name
And in that we’re all the same:
We’re all incognito.

TOM ROBBINS.

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The Dawn Of Awareness

For as long as I can remember I always thought I would be good at blogging. I mean, I used to be good at keeping a diary. And then Life Happened. Its now been 2 years and I only have 5 posts. Guess that's what you get when you try to juggle arch school with anything else. My 5 posts aint even that interesting. So, I am switching it up a little, instead of attempting to blog about my social life (cause clearly I have non during the semester) I will blog about general stuff that catches my interest (celebs mainly - match making. Yay) So the Golden Globes nominee list is out and here are my predictions. Granted I haven't seen all the stuff here but I know what I like...

THE GOLDEN GLOBES PREDICTIONS 

BEST ACTRESS: COMEDY OR MUSICALToni Collete, United States of Tara
Edie Falco, Nurse Jackie
Tina Fey, 30 Rock
Laura Linney, The Big C
Lea Michele, Glee

BEST MINISERIES
Carlos
The Pacific
Pillars of the Earth
Temple Grandin
You Don't Know Jack
(Never seen any of these but Temple Grandin is based on a live person and it won Oscars so)

BEST ORIGINAL SONG FROM A MOTION PICTURE
"Bound to You" -- Burlesque
"Coming Home" -- Country Strong
"I See the Light" -- Tangled
"There's a Place For Us" -- The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of Dawn Treader
"You Haven't Seen the Last of Me" -- Burlesque

BEST ACTOR: TV COMEDY
Alec Baldwin, 30 Rock
Steve Carrell, The Office
Thomas Jane, Hung
Matthew Morrison, Glee
Jim Parsons, The Big Bang Theory
(He's not gonna win. The Emmy was enough I think. Alec always takes this. Poor Steve. Matthew might ride the glee wave. Sadly this is the first I am hearing of Hung so I don't know Thomas)


BEST ACTRESS: TV DRAMA
Julianna Margulies, The Good Wife
Katey Segal, The Sons of Anarchy
Kyra Sedgwick, The Closer
Piper Perabo, Covert Affairs
Elisabeth Moss, Mad Men

BEST SCREENPLAY FOR A MOTION PICTURE
127 Hours
The Kids Are All Right
Inception
The King's Speech
The Social Network
(TSN was great but you guys... INCEPTION!!!)

BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR: TV
Scott Caan, Hawaii 5-0
Chris Colfer, Glee
Chris Noth, The Good Wife
Eric Stonestreet, Modern Family
David Strathairn, Temple Grandin


BEST TV SERIES: COMEDY
30 Rock
The Big Bang Theory
The Big C
Glee
Modern Family
Nurse Jackie
(I am torn here, I love me some TBBT and Glee but to be honest, they work for only a target audience while Modern Family just keeps the laughs coming :)

BEST FOREIGN LANGUAGE FILM
Biutiful (Mexico & Spain)
The Concert (France)
I Am Love (Italy)
In A Better World (Denmark)
(your guess is as good as mine)


BEST ANIMATED
Despicable Me
How to Train Your Dragon
The Illusionist
Tangled
Toy Story 3
(Toy Story 3 is gonna win though. Pixar always does)

BEST ACTRESS, TV
Hayley Atwell, Pillars of the Earth
Clare Danes, Temple Grandin
Judi Dench, Cranford
Jennifer Love Hewitt, The Client List
Romola Garai, Emma

BEST ACTRESS, MOTION PICTURE COMEDY / MUSICAL
Annette Benning, The Kids Are All Right
Anne Hathaway, Love and Other Drugs
Angelina Jolie, The Tourist
Julianne Moore Moore, The Kids Are All Right
Emma Stone, Easy A

BEST ACTOR, MOTION PICTURE COMEDY / MUSICAL
Johnny Depp, Alice in Wonderland
Johnny Depp, The Tourist
Paul Giamatti -- Barney's Version
Jake Gyllenhaal, Love and Other Drugs
Kevin Spacey -- Casino Jack
(I love me some Johnny and Jake. Hmmmn, how I would enjoy that sandwich ;)

BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR, MOTION PICTURE DRAMA
Christian Bale, The Fighter
Michael Douglas, Wall Street 2
Andrew Garfield, The Social Network
Jeremey Renner, The Town
Geoffrey Rush, The King's Speech

BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESSS, MOTION PICTURE DRAMA
Amy Adams, The Fighter
Helena Bonham-Carter, The King's Speech
Mila Kunis, Black Swan
Melissa Leo, The Fighter
Jackie Weaver, Animal Kingdom

BEST ACTOR, TV DRAMA
Steve Buscemi, Boardwalk Empire
Bryan Cranston, Breaking Bad
Michael C. Hall, Dexter
Jon Hamm, Mad Men
Hugh Laurie, House


BEST DIRECTOR, MOTION PICTURE
Darren Aronofsky, Black Swan
David Fincher, The Social Network
Tom Hooper, The King's Speech
Chris Nolan, Inception
David O. Russell, The Fighter

BEST MOTION PICTURE, COMEDY / MUSICAL
Alice in Wonderland
Burlesque
The Kids Are All Right
Red
The Tourist

BEST TV SERIES, DRAMA
Boardwalk Empire
Dexter
The Good Wife
Mad Men
The Walking Dead

BEST ACTRESS, MOTION PICTURE DRAMA
Halle Berry, Frankie and Alice
Nicole Kidman, Rabbit Hole
Jennifer Lawrence, Winter's Bone
Natalie Portman -- Black Swan
Michelle Williams - Blue Valentine

BEST ACTOR, MOTION PICTURE DRAMA
Jesse Eisenberg, The Social Network
Colin Firth -- The King's Speech
James Franco, 127 Hours
Ryan Gosling, Blue Valentine
Mark Wahlberg, The Fighter

BEST MOTION PICTURE, DRAMA
Black Swan
The Fighter
Inception
The King's Speech
The Social Network
( Ah, they were all great. Only reason haven't chosen the Fighter is I haven't watched it yet. Bet it was also great. Though honestly its between Inception and TSN. Hey, Garfield and Page should date. Told ya I like matchmaking ;)

OMG!!!!! How old am I????

Seriously, here I was. Working away at my hotel project in blissful ignorance of what was happening in the world outside of FoBE when Diane comes back from a phone call to tell me her high school roommate and our mutual classmate has a baby shower this weekend!!! A baby shower!!! Why the shock? A baby shower makes it legitimate, this is not some random case of getting knocked up and taking a few years off from school, girlfriend is married and everything. And in case you're wondering why I am freaking out like a drug addict watching his last supply get flushed down the sewer drains, I am only 21, (or as I like telling people 18 - for the 3rd year running :) but I digress. Just this afternoon I was updating my bucket list and it included flushing my boobs at traffic on a bridge. So how can I be the same age as this mum-to-be??? Surely not, she must be wired wrong. Why would anyone want to settle down this early? There's so much to do. So much to see. Stuff that can only be done by the free and unburdened. At least that's my philosophy. All the same it is quite the wake up call. Luckily I was never one to want kids so nothing like a panic attack about settling down, though I really should get a move on with that bucket list. You just never know...now which bridge should I bless with a full daylight view of my lovely lady lumps? :)

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack :)

Hey lovies :) Yeah, I just finished reading GFY which featured JLO heavily so yeah I am saying lovies. Anyway, I miscalculated; this post was supposed to be yeaterday but life got in the way. Much like it did for the last year but I will pick up pace and post on a semi-regularly basis.